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the precise moment when i finally woke up to beginning to love Jesus is very clear to me to this day. i was in high school and almost obessively in love with a girl in the class year after me. long story short, i was agonizing one evening over how my passionate love for her was largely ignored and unrequited despite my relentless efforts to gained her attention and favor.

as i was praying to God and crying out my emotional anguish to Him, it dawned on me that i was doing the exact same thing to Him (God).

that was the moment i truly felt the pain of God and His unrequited love for me.

that was the moment i cried and began to pay more attention to recognizing His love for me and mine for Him.

that was the moment i began to love Jesus.

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